Originally, I started blogging because I was annoyed that people thought I couldn't live an awesome and joy-filled life because of health issues I had. I did NOT want to surrender to the victim mentality - so I thought blogging would be a good way to challenge myself and encourage others who might be in a similar boat. I wanted to prove to myself and the world that I could choose to live in joy and live WELL not in spite of, but even because of the thorn in my flesh.
Over the last few years ... I was correctly diagnosed which enabled me to begin seeing good changes in my health, and I also made some lifestyle changes that help me deal with it. So today I am functioning REALLY well - and most people would never even know that I have chronic health stuff!!
Am I always "Happy"? Nope. But because of God I am able to live in peace and be truly filled with joy every day as I seek Him first (I'm gonna be honest and say right now that is not every day - I get selfish and take my eyes off of Him and then I am a mess). The journey we are on is now (2014) leading to our dream of trying to start a family through adoption. If I thought dealing with health issues was painful, it was nothing like missing and loving babies I have never met, and I need God more every day. I am truly excited for what God has for us in the next chapter of our life - whatever that will be!!
I have learned that in living honestly before the world that there will be judgement - about health, about adoption... I am learning that I can use my voice to encourage others as well as challenge myself, but ultimately, I live to please the God that made me and knows every step of my future. I want my life to be a little mirror in an ocean of mirrors that reflect who God is to those who want to know. I long to hear that Voice say : "well done My good and faithful servant". THAT is why I am blogging.
